Hey love. I completely understand where you stand. Two things jumped out at me as I read what you shared: First, that you may perhaps have a very narrow view of success, and second, that favor is not fair.
You say everyone around you is okay with mediocrity – but how is it that you define mediocrity? What is success? Working for a multinational firm? Take it from me personally: what will completely destroy you, your relationships, and your faith in the world we live in today is falling into the trap of having a one-sided view of success, or assuming that because you or others do not fall into this successful box the world has created, then you or they are failures. The only mediocre life is one that is outside the will and plan of God. If you are functioning in your purpose – whether it’s working for a multinational firm or being a librarian – then you are never settling for mediocrity. So I think first and foremost you need to reevaluate what ‘better’ is for you as a child of God seeking to live out his/her purpose – and if being a top executive at a reputable multinational firm is it, then go for it. But either way, strive to be free of those myopic world views – it will change your life and ensure that pride does not get in the way of where God is trying to lead you in any season. It did mine.
Secondly, understand favor. What you just described to me, is favor. Favor is not fair. It doesn’t play by the rules. Favor is meant for purpose, and to display God’s power even in the midst of insurmountable obstacles. It is when God steps in and does for us what we could not do for ourselves, and in such a way that the glory can only be given to Him. Don’t be afraid to step into it. God is not unable to open and shut doors. God doesn’t take steps for us, but He does order them. So take the steps, and trust Him to direct you in the right path 🙂