I’ve always hated tests and examinations. While I’ve never failed one, the anxiety and stress that comes with them is enough to make me want to crawl under my covers and not resurface for days.
And yet, I understand the significance of them. I understand that, while not always the greatest measure of ability for one reason or the other, when administered properly, they do offer some sense of our overall understanding of a topic or subject.
Now, I haven’t been doing this ‘serious Christian’ thing for very long, but it absolutely amazes me how every single time I learn something – about God or who I am in Him or what His promises are for me – I am tested on that knowledge. Sometimes it’s months later. Other times it’s days later. Today it was seconds later. And to be honest, I was about to slip down the rabbit hole of worry on this one. I could feel myself hyperventilating and all my plans unraveling at the seam. Then I looked at the words that I posted earlier this morning:
I had to ask myself: Did I really trust those words? And trust them for myself? Or was it just a cool slogan I could slap on social media for content purposes and some likes? It’s no coincidence that another verse in Chapter 7 of Matthew jumped out at me this morning:
“These words I speak to you are not incidental additions to your life, homeowner improvements to your standard of living. They are foundational words, words to build a life on. If you work these words into your life, you are like a smart carpenter who built his house on solid rock. Rain poured down, the river flooded, a tornado hit—but nothing moved that house. It was fixed to the rock.
“But if you just use my words in Bible studies and don’t work them into your life, you are like a stupid carpenter who built his house on the sandy beach. When a storm rolled in and the waves came up, it collapsed like a house of cards.”
When Jesus concluded his address, the crowd burst into applause. They had never heard teaching like this. It was apparent that he was living everything he was saying.
I’m choosing to live these words. This morning, I’m making the choice to be careless because I am in the care of God – and nothing is impossible for Him.