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What Lie Are You Believing?

What false report?

What words of negativity were spoken over your life that have taken root in your heart and sprouted seeds of doubt and fear without you even knowing it?

Seeds that started off as tiny shoots but have grown to be a field of weeds in which nothing good can grow? In which the promises of God just can’t take root?

We all have them, but to be honest, I didn’t think I had any till yesterday when God showed me just how much a single statement had made me a slave to a spirit of worthlessness – a slave to the same lie the enemy has used since Adam: ‘you are not enough’.

It was a statement that was said supposedly to help me, but more likely to strike me. It cut so deep that over a year later I am still experiencing the aftershocks. I still cringe when I think about it. I still remember how it took hours and hours on the phone with Anna and Menee to even recover some semblance of sanity after it. I don’t know how I missed that It was so deeply rooted that subconsciously my motive for hardwork became to prove that person wrong. To show them that I was worthy and I was capable. Almost everything I did to excel was not because I knew God would do for me what He promised and prosper the work of my hands, but rather in an effort to cancel out the pain I felt when this person stamped the label of ‘worthless’ on me. When they told me to stop writing because I was wasting my time. When they labeled me an attention seeker. When they told me I was wasting my life.

I only just realized how deeply those lies shook me to the core. 

But I thank God that those words didn’t stop me from blogging, because God reminded me that the charge was not mine, and I couldn’t take His mantle even if I tried. I thank God that someone telling me I was wasting my time didn’t stop me from serving. I thank God that this past year has built me up to remember that nothing I do in service to Him – no sacrifice I make or word I speak – is ever in vain. And I thank God because my worth is in Him, and not in whatever label is on me at any given time. I am enough because He is enough. I may not be qualified, but lucky me, because it’s only then that the God who created the entire universe can step in and qualify me. And while everyone is fighting and wrestling and digging themselves into holes for self promotion I have chosen to trust God to promote me. Because I do not want to be anywhere God doesn’t want me to be. Like Moses said, if He does not lead me up from where I am, if He is not going with me, then I don’t want to leave. While others vie for the thrones of this world, for pulpits and platforms and stages, I rest assured because I already wear a crown – one that cannot be taken away from me. I cannot lose for winning. 

I don’t want to live slave to a lie. I don’t want the enemy to be able to use the people I care about or the people closest to me to constantly hurt me for years to come. So I let the lie go. I declare that it has no place in my life. I am who God says I am, and I will do what He has created me to do. Nothing will prevent that. His word says that even the gates of hell cannot prevail against what He builds. And the only way to let go of a lie, is to forgive the one who spoke it. So I’m choosing to truly forgive. I’m going to make what Christ did for me bigger than what anyone did to me. 

If there’s a lie that’s taken root in your life, I encourage you to do the same!

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